Monday, January 26, 2009

I'm home!

I'm home!  It's awesome to be home.  It was a good show, and we had a good time, but nothing feels as good as being home, with the people that love me more than anyone else in the world could love me.

Kevin's job is in jeopardy.  It's a long story, and he shouldn't be there now.  It is WAY too hard on his body, which is broken down from this same job.  However, we need his income, and without a degree, we don't know what he can find.  At least here, he's working, with a paycheck.  The trade-off really isn't worth it, though.

I don't know what to hope for.  I don't know what to pray for.  I don't know what the future will bring for him.  He needs to be working, but I don't want his physical pain to keep going on, day in and day out.

Just pray for the right thing.  Send good thoughts for the right thing.  I don't know what it is, but God does, and we'll wait and see.  Please do what you can to support Kevin.  Advice is welcome, and criticism will be accepted.  I say "accepted" because I'm too tired to take criticism real well right now.  However, I'll read this again tomorrow, and I'll be clear-headed.

Wow, I'm scared, for the first time in a long time.  Scared without a specific hope to hang on to.  Do I want him to keep his job?  Do I want him to get laid off and do something else?  

I know that I want to keep my house.  I know that I want my husband to live a long time.  I know that I want to afford all I can for my kids.

*sigh*  I'm floundering, here.

8 comments:

Lisa said...

Awwwww welcome home hon, will keep Kevin in my prayers, Hugs Lisa

Anonymous said...

Welcome back!

Donna. W said...

Scary times like these can help you get priorities straight. At least that's what happened to us when Cliff had those years of being under-employed.

It took at least six years for us to see that proverbial light at the end of the tunnel back then. But now we know what's really important, and we've discussed this economic situation often. If we lose the place, it's OK. We have one another.

Of course, all this was brought home to us again when Cliff had heart surgery almost three years ago. Just remember what's REALLY important.

Anonymous said...

Rachel, your Mom is right on. The most important thing is that Kevin's body gets healed up and that you're all together. Yes it's nice to be warm and secure and not have to worry too much, but like GG says "they ain't quit making that stuff". Just remember that as long as I have food and shelter - you'll have food and shelter. Love you all - Grammy

Anonymous said...

Family is all important. They will hold your hand and pray with you through this. My family has helped me all through my own hard times.

Pamela said...

I will be keeping him in my prayers. Can he go on disability? Health is so important. Without that your whole life stops! I mean it comes to a screeching halt until you get back on track. You'll be ok.

Lisa said...

You have a wonderful attitude and with that you will be okay and you will make it, one way or another. I really enjoyed finding your blog. I will send you an invite to my private one. Thanks for sharing a little about your life. My husband and I are basically in the same boat so I can really relate. He has a job but who knows if it will be there the day after tomorrow... and it is far too hard on his body.
Lisa

Anonymous said...

Just a thought, but Kevin might do well at a sales job in the same field. I would imagine that, with his experience loading those trucks, he could do material pull-offs.