I don't want to sound ungrateful, hateful, or snippy for even a minute of this post, so if it comes across that way, I apologize in advance. Several people a day ask me how I'm feeling. The answer is always, "Tired." The bone pain is gone and I haven't taken a pain pill since Monday. I just can't bounce back from the fatigue this time.
I'm considering lying. I could plaster on a fake smile and say, "I'm great!" Nobody is making me feel like I need to do this, but I'm sick to death of hearing myself say I'm tired. Almost as sick of saying I'm tired as I am of BEING tired. Almost.
I am asleep, or at least horizontal, most every moment that I'm not at work. That's why I'm not on Facebook much. That's why I'm not blogging much. I don't hurt right now and I'm not having any major issues. I'm just tired, and I'm tired of being tired, and I'm tired of bitching about being tired of being tired.
How are you?
4 comments:
You do not sound ungrateful & you have no fondness for dramatic exaggeration. ..you are just damn tired. People constantly asking that question is intensely superfluous. It would annoy me to keep hearing the question, & even more to have to keep answering it..which is tiring in & of itself.
I thought we partied pretty good tonight for Natalie's birthday. I'm just glad you aren't hurting.
I am so sorry you are not doing as well as you wish. I still think you are amazing.As for me I am doing much better. After months of back pain leading to sciatic pain up and down my left leg, I had back surgery on the 3 lowest vertebrae today and got up and walked to the bathroom (with a nurse) and it was easy! Granted I am on Morphine but still,I am happy!
I would think that is normal to be tired and to be tired of being tired. It's ok to be true to yourself. I am going to pray you get some spurts of energy so you can enjoy yourself this weekend. Thinking about ya!
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