Friday, April 20, 2012

And the Hits Just Keep on Coming

The ride home yesterday was a bitch.  There is no other way to say it.  Every little bump was a new lesson in pain.  Finally at home, I got comfy in my own bed, got drugged up, and settled in as much as possible.  Although I was never completely comfortable (and didn't expect to be,) I got 8 hours of sleep with only one wake-up for a bathroom break and medication.  That is tons better than I slept at the hospital.

Today, Kevin's mom came up and walked in the door with my favorite Sonic drink.  Win!  After that came a much needed shower.  I love my husband but consider myself very independent, so this was a humiliating and painful experience.  When it was over, though, I felt so much better.

As I started to drift off in the recliner, my phone rang and Kevin answered since I wasn't coherent.  It was the surgeon.  And it was what I was afraid of.

Of the 10 nodes that they removed, 3 contained cancer cells.  Chemo will be coming.  On May third, when I follow up with my oncologist, we'll talk about radiation.  DAMN, DAMN, DAMN.  This is not what I had in mind.  Just in case you wondered.  Not what I had in mind at all.  I think I'll go pout, now.

14 comments:

Sherry said...

still praying, stay strong and I'm sorry, hugs, Sherry

Celeste Sanders said...

Well craps. Good news ONLY 3. Damn damn damn Prayers as always.

Anonymous said...

Dee from Tennessee (aka as Devonia Cochran on fb)

Long-time reader of your mom's blog and fb friend of hers. Just want you to know that I'm in your corner! Prayers and more prayers will continue.

TARYTERRE said...

Three seems like three too many, I know. DAMN UNFAIR, for sure. But the GOOD news is it's NOT 10 or 8 or 7, etc. You will get through this. Sometimes prayers take LONGER to answer. HANG tough. You will get through this.

Margaret said...

You can do this and be cancer free. It will be a tough journey and full of ups and downs, but there are so many great treatments for cancer these days. Stay strong. xoxo

Paula said...

Three too many. I'm still here praying for you and your family.

Lisa said...

Praying for you and hugs.

Lori said...

Saying a prayer for you Rachel. Stay strong and positive.

I'm mostly known as 'MA' said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers as you go though this. Go ahead and pout, but never give up.

small farm girl said...

That sucks.

Debbie said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Adirondackcountrygal said...

Hang in there, I know it is going to be hard but you can do it!

Sonya Cox said...

:-( :-( But you are keepin' the faith girl. And God is in control.

nerves05 said...

That stinks.. BIG TIME..
Hang in there Rachel.. Bless your heart. I'm still sending good thoughts and prayers your way..

Thank god you caught this early.
I know you will be fine through all this..
((HUGS))