We were hit with a foot of snow on Thursday. At some points it was snowing 2-3" per hour. There was no way I'd get home, so when they closed the lab at 10:00, my employer put me and three coworkers up at a nearby hotel. It was total insanity. The three of them had to push my car as often as it moved under it's own power. By last night, I was super happy to be at home.
Monica was supposed to go to Mizzou (in Columbia, MO) for a band event tomorrow. They were to rehearse tomorrow, sleep in a dorm, rehearse Monday and then perform Monday night. The other girl invited is a friend of Monica's and her mother was going to transport them. There is now another snow storm heading this way and it is supposed to hit Monday evening. This made us very nervous so I was happy when they called a bit ago and told us they were postponing it.
A week from today, I'll be in Texas visiting Brooke. I'm travelling with my friend Tammy, who is visiting her son in San Antonio while I hang with Brooke a couple of hours away. Then we'll travel home together. I'm super excited. We'll get back on Monday afternoon, and then I'm off work Tuesday for doctor's appointments. The annual visits are approaching and I'm getting more nervous by the day.
I know two people who have gone through breast cancer treatment at the same time as me and who have recently found out they have metastatic cancer. Both have it in their bones and one of them in her lungs, too. This freaks me out hardcore. There is nothing I can do except stay vigilant with exams and report anything new that pops up. That, and enjoy every minute of every day. I try my best not to dwell on the what-ifs, but my mind still goes there several times a day.
NASCAR is back for another season, starting with the running of the Daytona 500 tomorrow. My family can utter a collective groan, but I'm thrilled. It makes everyone happy that we have two TVs in the house. Combine this season starter with the new season of Duck Dynasty starting on Wednesday and you have one happy redneck chick right here.
Wow, that was a lot of subject hopping. I guess maybe I should update more often and that wouldn't happen, but that's what's going through my mind this afternoon.
Showing posts with label Tammy. Show all posts
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Saturday, February 23, 2013
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Chemo Day 6 of 8
I had an appointment with my oncologist yesterday. I always have lab work and an appointment with her the day before chemo. I really like her, and I trust her completely. She's never been anything but honest and open with me. However, I was in a foul mood when I got there yesterday, and it caused me to leave there mad at her.
I posted on Facebook that I could tell her that there is battery acid dripping from my eye sockets and my arms have fallen off, and she would smile, nod, and say sweetly, "Yes, you're doing great." Normally, her positive attitude is what I need. She is gentle and sweet and understanding. I think the big ol' chip on my shoulder wanted her to say, "Wow, you're having a rough time, aren't you? Here's a cookie." LOL
The truth is, she really does think I'm doing very well, considering the side effects. She sounds amazed every time she asks if I'm still working and I tell her that I am. I keep saying that, if my job had better short-term disability pay, I'd take off until this was over. The truth is, though, I'd be in a worse place, emotionally, if I was home all day feeding my pity party. At least when I'm at work I am solving other people's problems and not thinking about my own.
Today is the day that I could have slept later. However, Kevin is trying to get some overtime, so he was up early and the light shines in our room, so I was up by 4. So much for sleeping in. I have an appointment with the plastic surgeon (it takes fewer than 5 minutes for a tissue expander fill) and then I double back to this side of the state line for chemo.
Chemo day is a relaxing day. Any side effects don't kick in for a couple of days, so it's not an uncomfortable experience in any way. I can play on my computer and relax. I can take lunch there if I choose, and they have a basket of snacks for those who find themselves hungry and ill prepared. The nurses are caring and sweet and chatty and genuine. I don't mind chemo day at all.
Three times, others have gone with me. It was fun to have someone to visit with, although I always worry they'll be bored. Kevin took reading material when he went, and my friends Brooke and Tammy each took a turn, hiding any boredom they experienced.
Kevin has planned an outing to Red Lobster for Sunday afternoon. We don't eat out very often, and he wanted to treat us with some of his OT. That is my incentive to not hurt so bad this time. LOL If it's as bad as last time, it'll just be him and the girls. If I can do it, I'll be going along. I LOVE Red Lobster. Maybe I'll start taking pain pills now to make sure it doesn't get too bad. I'm kidding, but I DO love those cheddar bay biscuits.
Wow, that turned into a rambling post. When you wander around that much in a blog post, it's time to stop.
I posted on Facebook that I could tell her that there is battery acid dripping from my eye sockets and my arms have fallen off, and she would smile, nod, and say sweetly, "Yes, you're doing great." Normally, her positive attitude is what I need. She is gentle and sweet and understanding. I think the big ol' chip on my shoulder wanted her to say, "Wow, you're having a rough time, aren't you? Here's a cookie." LOL
The truth is, she really does think I'm doing very well, considering the side effects. She sounds amazed every time she asks if I'm still working and I tell her that I am. I keep saying that, if my job had better short-term disability pay, I'd take off until this was over. The truth is, though, I'd be in a worse place, emotionally, if I was home all day feeding my pity party. At least when I'm at work I am solving other people's problems and not thinking about my own.
Today is the day that I could have slept later. However, Kevin is trying to get some overtime, so he was up early and the light shines in our room, so I was up by 4. So much for sleeping in. I have an appointment with the plastic surgeon (it takes fewer than 5 minutes for a tissue expander fill) and then I double back to this side of the state line for chemo.
Chemo day is a relaxing day. Any side effects don't kick in for a couple of days, so it's not an uncomfortable experience in any way. I can play on my computer and relax. I can take lunch there if I choose, and they have a basket of snacks for those who find themselves hungry and ill prepared. The nurses are caring and sweet and chatty and genuine. I don't mind chemo day at all.
Three times, others have gone with me. It was fun to have someone to visit with, although I always worry they'll be bored. Kevin took reading material when he went, and my friends Brooke and Tammy each took a turn, hiding any boredom they experienced.
Kevin has planned an outing to Red Lobster for Sunday afternoon. We don't eat out very often, and he wanted to treat us with some of his OT. That is my incentive to not hurt so bad this time. LOL If it's as bad as last time, it'll just be him and the girls. If I can do it, I'll be going along. I LOVE Red Lobster. Maybe I'll start taking pain pills now to make sure it doesn't get too bad. I'm kidding, but I DO love those cheddar bay biscuits.
Wow, that turned into a rambling post. When you wander around that much in a blog post, it's time to stop.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
A Good Day
I DID have a good day today. I overdid it in the heat, I think, but I had fun. I felt nearly normal again...maybe even better than yesterday. I asked my buddy Tammy if she'd like to get lunch or something, and she was game (as was her hubby Greg.) They had some things to take care of first, and then I met them at their house, and showed Tammy and her daughter Brooke WAY more than they thought they'd see today. (They wanted to see, so I showed them!)
Then, Tammy and I piled into Greg's truck and headed out for lunch. We went to Texas Roadhouse and I ate like an idiot. I was SO hungry. I really ate too much. I had chicken fried steak, sweet potato, salad and a beer, and it took four hours before I recovered. So.Full. We also had a good time laughing and I made Tammy cry (it was a good one, though) and she had Greg take us to a store I'd never heard of.
It had some cool stuff, and I'd be happy to tell you the name of it, if I remembered. Let's just say it's that store beside the other store in that place with all the new stores. In that one town. West of here. You know the place.
All in all, it was a fun day. Driving home during the hottest part of the day with no a/c in the car is probably what did me in, but sitting in the a/c at home with a fan pointed at my recliner has me feeling good again. I could go to sleep now, but I'm waiting a bit longer. I have to keep a more regular schedule now that I'm back to work.
It feels SO good to feel so good. Tiny, manageable aches and pains, but who doesn't have those? I do find that, if I sleep in my bed at all, I wake up with my back screaming. I spent 6 weeks sleeping in the recliner, and I have to ease back into sleeping in a real bed. Weird huh? Still, once I'm up and showered and moving, I feel normal. Two days in a row! Even better, no breakdown tonight!
Oh, and to answer some questions from comments:
Then, Tammy and I piled into Greg's truck and headed out for lunch. We went to Texas Roadhouse and I ate like an idiot. I was SO hungry. I really ate too much. I had chicken fried steak, sweet potato, salad and a beer, and it took four hours before I recovered. So.Full. We also had a good time laughing and I made Tammy cry (it was a good one, though) and she had Greg take us to a store I'd never heard of.
It had some cool stuff, and I'd be happy to tell you the name of it, if I remembered. Let's just say it's that store beside the other store in that place with all the new stores. In that one town. West of here. You know the place.
All in all, it was a fun day. Driving home during the hottest part of the day with no a/c in the car is probably what did me in, but sitting in the a/c at home with a fan pointed at my recliner has me feeling good again. I could go to sleep now, but I'm waiting a bit longer. I have to keep a more regular schedule now that I'm back to work.
It feels SO good to feel so good. Tiny, manageable aches and pains, but who doesn't have those? I do find that, if I sleep in my bed at all, I wake up with my back screaming. I spent 6 weeks sleeping in the recliner, and I have to ease back into sleeping in a real bed. Weird huh? Still, once I'm up and showered and moving, I feel normal. Two days in a row! Even better, no breakdown tonight!
Oh, and to answer some questions from comments:
- I have been researching the heck out of all the medications that are in my regimen. I know the side effects, common and rare. I'm ready. *sigh*
- I have the numbing stuff to put over the port site, and plan to use it. They accessed it once already to take blood, and it didn't hurt at all, and that was without the cream, so I don't expect problems that way.
- I will get anti-nausea meds prescribed, and maybe during treatment if necessary. Everyone reacts differently to chemo, so until I've had that first treatment, we won't know what's necessary for me, but we'll be fully prepare for any of it.
- Yes, I know it's healthy to let myself cry. I just am making sure that I don't slip into a funk. I will allow myself short bursts of waah, but I will NOT let them become the norm.
- I appreciate the prayers and kind words. They mean the world to me right now. Thank you.
Friday, May 4, 2012
My Tammy, and My Plans
Tammy and Greg came to visit tonight. They brought along some Bates City BBQ for dinner. LOVE! It was amazing as usual. We had a good visit for several hours, and I committed to something else with her. At Christmas time, a customer sent a SpaFinder gift card to me. I am NOT a spa-type of girl.
Since the "C" word was dropped on me, I thought it might be nice to get a pedicure and just make something feel kind of pretty before the ugliness begins. The problem is, I have issues with feet. Feet are gross. As I was talking to Tammy tonight, she said that she had feet issues too, but LOVED the only pedicure she's ever had. OK, enough for me.
Tomorrow, we'll go get pedicures together. Wish me luck. LOL I'm not sure how I'll feel about it. It will also be good to spend some time with my Tammy. It's been too long. We may even celebrate Cinco de Mayo a bit. You never know.
Oh crap. I only own tennis shoes! What good is a pedicure if it can't be seen? *sigh* This is why I avoid being a girl most of the time. Give me jeans, a sweatshirt, tennis shoes, and a pony tail and I'm fine. Oh well, we'll figure something out.
Oh yeah: Most of the hair is going tomorrow, too. Not all, but I have three weeks to get it down to nearly nothing. I don't want the shock of waking to 12" chunks of hair on my pillow, so I'm prepping in stages.
Long story short (too late) I'm having a fun day with Tammy tomorrow. Yay!
Since the "C" word was dropped on me, I thought it might be nice to get a pedicure and just make something feel kind of pretty before the ugliness begins. The problem is, I have issues with feet. Feet are gross. As I was talking to Tammy tonight, she said that she had feet issues too, but LOVED the only pedicure she's ever had. OK, enough for me.
Tomorrow, we'll go get pedicures together. Wish me luck. LOL I'm not sure how I'll feel about it. It will also be good to spend some time with my Tammy. It's been too long. We may even celebrate Cinco de Mayo a bit. You never know.
Oh crap. I only own tennis shoes! What good is a pedicure if it can't be seen? *sigh* This is why I avoid being a girl most of the time. Give me jeans, a sweatshirt, tennis shoes, and a pony tail and I'm fine. Oh well, we'll figure something out.
Oh yeah: Most of the hair is going tomorrow, too. Not all, but I have three weeks to get it down to nearly nothing. I don't want the shock of waking to 12" chunks of hair on my pillow, so I'm prepping in stages.
Long story short (too late) I'm having a fun day with Tammy tomorrow. Yay!
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