Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Halfway There, and Weird Thoughts

I'm sitting in "the chair," getting chemo treatment 4 of 8.  I'll be halfway done with this part of the journey in about 2 hours.  The drug that I start in 2 weeks is supposed to be much easier.  I'll take easier.  Although, once she got my headaches and sleeplessness under control, I can't say I have all that much to complain about on THIS set of drugs.

I also went to the plastic surgeon today for a tissue expander fill.  He only did 60 cc again because it's been a month and it would have hurt me too much to do more than that.  It hurts pretty dang bad, anyway.  This may be a day that I leave the infusion center, go home, pop a Valium and a pain pill and go to sleep.  Anyway, he says that if I go more often, it shouldn't hurt as bad, so we're only waiting two weeks this time.

I said this on Facebook, but I'm really laughing at myself about this.  Any time I go to ANY doctor, the nurse takes me back, takes my vitals, and says, "change into this gown, the doctor will be with you shortly."  I KNOW that I'm going to sit in that cold room for at least 20 minutes, yet I scramble to change as quickly as I possibly can.  Why?  What's the hurry?  I'm just going to sit there, feeling vulnerable, legs dangling from that paper covered table/bench/bed thing for what feels like DAYS.

I think I'm worried he'll walk in and see something.  See what?  You know, the same thing he's going to make me show him anyway!  What's the point of the speedy-change freak out?  I've been going to doctor appointments by myself for 25 years.  I have NEVER been walked in on, or even ALMOST been walked in on while changing.  How many more years will it take for me to slow down and take my time?

I wonder if they have a set amount of time that they wait, in case someone is a slow changer?  Does the nurse make a note of the time she walked out, so the doctor can wait the appropriate amount of time before coming in?  How long could even the slowest mover take to remove her shirt, remove her bra, put on a gown, and climb up on a paper covered table/bench/bed thing?  Two minutes?  Hmmm.  The things I ponder from the chemo chair.

7 comments:

Carlene Noggle said...

I like you, have never been walked in on before I could get into a dang gown, but break my fool neck each time trying to get that gown on me! So good to hear you are half way thouigh with chemo!

Bookncoffee said...

Oh I have so pondered those same thoughts, yet I continue to speedily zip out of my clothes and into the new set. There is just something about changing clothes that no one wants anyone to see. And of course, don't you like hide your bra into your jeans so they don't see it in the chair? lol Hope you feel better this time around. Glad headaches and sleep issues are under control. Keeping you in my prayers. I love you and your family! You are my blog kin folk. :-)

Forty Pound Sack said...

do you fold your bra & undies into little squares and hide them under your clothes? No? Oh. Guess that's just me =)

Forty Pound Sack said...

LOL, it's not just me! Bookncoffee, you're a gal after my own heart ~

Lindie said...

Yup, I guess we all do that!

Drea said...

Yup, *nobody* should get a peek at our bras or undies if we need to remove them at the doctor's office. Isn't there a rule about that? :)

Rachel said...

Undergarments ALWAYS safely hidden between outer wear. Make sure those straps are tucked in good.