Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I'm not happy

There. I said it. I'm not happy.

Around here, I am the happy one. I'm the optimistic one. I'm the "half full" one. I can laugh and move on when bad stuff happens. I've never been depressed, really. I've had a day or two of "down," but I get over it and laugh again.

The last couple of days, I can't shake it. I know that I've lost a co-worker lately. I understand that all three sharks in my aquariums have died (the oldest and biggest, I've had for 4 years.) I know that we're financially strapped with Kevin not working. I know all of that, and I've faced worse. Seriously. It's been way worse than this.

So, I have to find my happy. I will. Trust me. It defines me: The Happy One. That's who I am. I support others who are sad or depressed. I'm not the one who needs support. That is NOT me. I will find my happy.

I only have two days of work left, before I'm off for a long weekend. I have been invited to a 4th of July party. I have a family who loves me dearly. I helped carry a brand new baby calf to the barn...to safety. I have a home. I have a cute little red Neon that is completely paid for. I have food to eat and clothes to wear. I have a lazy dog who thinks I rock.

I have people. Dammit. I have people. I'll be fine.

5 comments:

Celeste said...

Sometimes we are just not happy. I get it. Be waiting for you

Carlene Noggle said...

Sometimes we just get tired of always being the 'strong one' or the 'happy one' for everyone else..sometimes we need to have 'everyone else' be the strong and happy ones for us for a change...and sometime that doesn't happen...Seems like you have had more than your fair share of loss lately ..no wonder you aren't happy. (I hope that the little black cloud will lift real soon.)
love ya,
carlene

Amy said...

I can show you my hooters if you tihnk that might jump-start your Happy. No? LOL

Traci said...

Well if not jump start the happy at least I got a laugh out of Amy's comment.
If you were here we could compare not happy. Right there with ya chick. Oh and I'd feed you some sausage balls which make everyone happy.

Sonya said...

Hope you find your happy!