Lymph Nodes 2, cancer 0

The ultra sound I had after the mammogram and during the biopsy indicated no cancer in the lymph nodes, but MIRs show more details.  I had the MRI on Friday, and thought it'd be Tuesday or Wednesday before I heard about results.

I have a smart phone that I love most things about, but the vibrate feature is VERY weak.  I took it out at 4 this afternoon, and saw that I had a voicemail.  It was from the surgeon at 3:45, saying he'd try again after his 4:00 meeting.  Crap.  I immediately took it off vibrate, and turned the volume to "high."

While I was on the way home, he DID call back.  He had the results of the MRI.  It agrees with the ultrasound that the cancer is NOT in my lymph nodes.  I have some BADASS lymph nodes, ok?  There is no way to know, with 100% accuracy, that they are clear, until after surgery when they remove at least one.  I'm still taking this as WONDERFUL news.  NOTHING has suggested that it's there, and TWO things have suggested that it's not.

The other thing is that the right breast is fine.  Nothing at all and no need for concern.  After several comments that "insurance has to cover reconstruction," I started doing online research.  It's TRUE!  There was a law passed about it.  SWEET.  That made my decision to do the mastectomy instead of begging the surgeon to try to save it.  Oh  yeah.  There's another reason for THAT, too.

Instead of two tumors, like they thought, the MRI indicates that it's likely one tumor, shaped like a dumbell.  (shut it!)  If that's true, it's a bit over 6 cm.  Wow.  The surgeon said that may rule out lumpectomy, but we've pretty much ruled that out for ourselves.

His nurses will schedule an appointment with an oncologist this week, and I'll likely be in surgery within 2-3 weeks.  Oh.  Another thing, for anyone who hasn't been close to this sort of thing:  I need a surgeon and and an oncologist.  That is a cutter, and a medicine guy.  I've seen the cutter, and will see the medicine guy this week.  Medicine guy decides if I'm a candidate for chemo or whatever else, and surgery will likely be within 2-3 weeks.

OK.  That's it.  I'm doing better after each appointment or conversation with those who know what they're doing.  I'm crying when I have time to do so, but it's not all sadness.  It's just overwhelmed.  I'm overwhelmed with information, overwhelmed with love and caring from friends and family, overwhelmed with the parts of life that must go on, and overwhelmed with worry.  Still, I'm feeling better.

Sorry this turned into a cancer blog.  LOL  Not as sorry as I am that I got cancer, though.  :)

Damn Stupid Idiotic Jerk Asshat Deer

I have cried more than I care to admit.  It's fixable.  It really is.  However, how much money do you put into a car with 190,000 miles on it?  I will NOT take on a car payment.  I can't.  If I buy something else, it has to be something I can buy without taking out a loan.  Anyone know of a reliable car that I can buy for $1.72?

I just don't know what to do.  We just got our finances figured out, and we're paying bills just fine and living, but "savings" is something I've only heard others talk about.  Heck, we weren't even well with bills until 3 months ago.  Now, were staying on track, but this is something that has us standing on our side porch, staring at a broken car with our jaws hanging open.

OK, so we'll get it back on the road as cheaply as possible, and decide what to do from there.  I am truly blessed.  My airbag didn't deploy, my car drove home fine, and my darling daughter loaned me her truck to get to work.  What if we didn't have her truck?  What if I had been hurt?  What if?

I *did* want to stop at that spot and kick that deer in the head a few times, and then take a picture (sorry, but I was mad,) but he was gone.  If he died, he didn't do it instantly.

Jerk.

8 Car Pileup

If Kevin hears a traffic report before I get off work, and if it could affect me, he will send me a text to let me know what to avoid.  I received such a text this evening.  "8 Car Pileup on Woods Chapel Road.  Exit ramp closed.  Backup forming on I-70."

In case you don't live around here, Woods Chapel is a 2-lane, in-town road.  The speed limit is probably 30 at best.  Tons of traffic lights dot the path.  Someone found a way to cause an 8 CAR PILEUP???  Ok, let's talk about idiots:

Idiots pay no attention to what is going on 3 or 4 cars ahead.  They brake only if the car ahead of them displays brake lights.  Idiots ride right up on someone's back bumper, and then curse loudly (and flip people off) if that person slows down.

Idiots eat with a spoon, shave, do makeup, and talk on their phone...all while in traffic.  They are quite offended if you DARE cause a delay in their plans.  Nobody else on Earth matters.  It's all me.me.me.  Yet, someone found a way to cause an EIGHT CAR PILEUP on Woods Chapel Road.

Sheesh.  I think I'll take my hot-air balloon to work tomorrow.  It's GOT to be safer than driving.  With IDIOTS.

Seasonal

We've had an unseasonably warm winter.  This weekend?  Not so much.  How appropriate that the 30 Day Photo Challenge word is "seasonal."  What do I do when it's cold?

Electric throw, computer, headphones, hoodie and hilarious videos online.  Yup.  THAT is seasonal.