Baby Steps

I stayed vertical during my waking hours today.  THAT is a step in the right direction.  I was finally able to fall asleep around midnight, and slept until 4 this morning when Kevin was getting around for work.  He stuck around while I got up to take medicine (he made me a piece of peanut butter toast,) go to the bathroom, do my drain care, etc. before he left for work.  After that, I went to lie down in bed for a few minutes and woke up three hours later!

I felt a bit better today, only breaking down into tears when someone talks to me with pity-voice.  I had perfected handling that voice last year, but it's been a while and this hurt is still fresh.  I know there will be a lot of that voice and the puppy eyes when I go back to work, so I need to be ready.  I also know, however, that my close friends will give me shit for missing work.  That'll help.

This afternoon, I felt like maybe I could sleep just a bit more, so I told Monica I was going to take a quick nap.  Four hours later, I woke up again.  I think my sleeping problem has been resolved.  I called out from the bedroom and Natalie came in.  When I asked her what time it is, she said that it was 5:00 and I couldn't believe it.  Now I'm just hoping that I'll still be able to sleep tonight after all that sleep today.  First world problems.
 
I don't think I'll be ready to go back to work tomorrow, although I had hoped to.  I'm still pretty unsteady and it's a constant job to control pain.  I might try for Friday, but I'd have to make a pretty big improvement for that to happen.  Although it's taking longer than I expected, I'm just glad I'm heading in the right direction.