I stayed vertical during my waking hours today. THAT is a step in the right direction. I was finally able to fall asleep around midnight, and slept until 4 this morning when Kevin was getting around for work. He stuck around while I got up to take medicine (he made me a piece of peanut butter toast,) go to the bathroom, do my drain care, etc. before he left for work. After that, I went to lie down in bed for a few minutes and woke up three hours later!
I felt a bit better today, only breaking down into tears when someone talks to me with pity-voice. I had perfected handling that voice last year, but it's been a while and this hurt is still fresh. I know there will be a lot of that voice and the puppy eyes when I go back to work, so I need to be ready. I also know, however, that my close friends will give me shit for missing work. That'll help.
This afternoon, I felt like maybe I could sleep just a bit more, so I told Monica I was going to take a quick nap. Four hours later, I woke up again. I think my sleeping problem has been resolved. I called out from the bedroom and Natalie came in. When I asked her what time it is, she said that it was 5:00 and I couldn't believe it. Now I'm just hoping that I'll still be able to sleep tonight after all that sleep today. First world problems.
I don't think I'll be ready to go back to work tomorrow, although I had hoped to. I'm still pretty unsteady and it's a constant job to control pain. I might try for Friday, but I'd have to make a pretty big improvement for that to happen. Although it's taking longer than I expected, I'm just glad I'm heading in the right direction.